Surviving

Today I seem to be in survival mode. I feel numb, like I have no feelings towards what all happened. I think it's my body/mind's way of keeping me from slipping into depression. I refuse to let myself drop to that point. I am not exactly in the best of moods either. So here I am, just going with the motions of life, waiting for something to happen. I'm sure I'll improve in a few days, once I find out what my next steps are. Until then, I'll remain stable. All I know now, is that I love my husband and I am grateful to have him by my side. :)